so remember when i said that someone had signed up
well it seemed to be
but it wasn't really
remember that post from earlier
about the self made girl
she is back and her
tender heart is broken
not by one
but by things that
just
keep
happening
i don't understand
i don't understand an
"i love you"
that turns around and walks away
i dont understand it
it doesnt compute
i would rather be
hated
despised
than be
ignored
forgotten
and yes
(here come the daddy issues)
abandoned
given up on
not worth it
how can i be the bee's knee's
but then fine to live without
...
i just plain don't understand
i really dont
but nothing i can do about it
and i know i will be fine
it will all be fine
life goes on
but goodness effing gracious
really?!?!
i am far from pleased...
2 comments:
Hi Myra,
You don't know me, but I did meet you twice when I heard you speak at adoption conferences. I really enjoyed you both times I heard you speak and you really made an impression on me. The first time I met you was when you were pregnant, and your words really made me miss my son's birth mom, whom we hadn't had any contact with for a while. (Her choice.) I came across your blog from Mrs. R's blog. Anyway, I've only read a little bit of your blog so far, but it sounds like you are going through some hard times. I'm sorry to hear that, and I'll be praying for you. I hope things start looking up for you.
Shauna
thank you so much for your kind sweet words, my blog (more often then not) is often my frustration sounding board. things are rough right now, but ive been through much worse. just makes things a little bit sad. but thank you for your thoughts and your prayers, they are much appreciated and felt.
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