it's gonna be a rough few days kids...

it's always hard to put yourself out there on the table

and wait for the blade

will the blade trim off the pieces that need to go

or will it cut into things that are oh so vital

i know i will survive

i know i am super duper tough

doesn't mean i want to do it

at.all.

but i learned something today

i know where i am supposed to be now

(and to my best efforts and knowledge I am there)

and i know where i am supposed to be in the future

and i have

no idea

how to get from A.-B.

but luckily for me its the little baby steps today

that will sort it all out

and freeingly enough

i don't have to sort out that SNAFU

I take my baby steps everyday

every

single

day

(no short task)

i BELIEVE

I WILL arrive

all GROWN up

at MY destination

I know what I am facing,

I know what is on the chopping block

the concept rocks me to my core

but i am calm and i have peace

BUT

I REALLY WANT MY WAY

prayers for me please

and even more for the blade

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