Thursday, June 19, 2008

Can I get an Amen?!

Ladies and gentlemen, brothers and sisters, I love S. Michael Wilcox. For years my brother has talked about his former institute teacher with misty eyes and a deep appreciation.(my cute brother usually tears up whenever he talks about the gospel. my gentle giant and tender hearted stewart)Reverence flows through his words as he refers to lessons he was taught by this great man. I had the opportunity to go to a fireside given by him on the topic of adoption(it's acutally where I met mrs. R for the first time and it was sisterhood at first site!) And may I say that it was a fabulous fabulous fabulous event. Michael Wilcox gives great-get through really hard stuff-talks and waiting to adopt can be one of those really hard things. For me its more of the finding an eternal companion, graduate from school, maintain my Healthy Person Status, can't everyone in my family just freaking get along, type of thing. And his words soothed my soul. Not because he solved my problems but because he gave me the tools to A.) Solve my own freaking problems or 2.) Learn to suck it up and like it when those problems can't be solved. Ahhhh it's good for the soul. I went right out and bought one of his books and have relished it ever since. Ladies and gentlemen may I introduce to you the one the only...

It is a true gem. It has taught me so much and there are so many amazing quotes that I have taken from it. The lastest and most heart striking is " There was no other path! When we realize there is no other path, we take a deep breath and move forward, facing our hard sayings, largely because there is no alternative."
This brings peace to my soul, for many reasons. I know I am a complex creature, but not that complex. I am primarily a worker bee. Don't make me choose how it should look, or what it should be like, or how it should be done. Tell me what you want and I will make it so. And I think that is why I loved the letter from The First Presidency regarding unwed pregnancy. The letter that was written explained just exactly what should be done, how it should be done and why. For me as a pregnant single girl, there were no choices to be made, just to follow suit. Adoption. Sweet! Done and done. Some who know me would say I am a leader, and in all those grey areas, yes I will exert my alpha feMale status and say DO IT MY WAY. But I am trying to learn how to ask how it should be before I want it done my way. And it's so nice to have Finally learned (at my freaking old age of 25 years. I swear I should have learned this years ago) that I don't have to choose the path. I just have to walk it. And Honey, I can walk it out!

4 comments:

Carlykins said...

Might have to pick up that book. I struggle with wanting things done my way and especially struggle when I feel like others are being rediculous and controlling me and not using commen sense. Those are unfortunately all opinions. It is hard to live as strongly opinionated person that feels passionately about things and others don't see what you are feeling or try to take it into consideration. YEESH! I know I am in the middle of being FORCED to let go since I don't know how to really well and it is HARD since I don't feel like I have control over anything. I then have to realize that I don't have control over my emotions and how I feel I DO however have control how I react! Very validating. At least I have control over something. I too like when things are black and white and laid out. LOVE that letter from the First Presidency. JUST MADE SENSE. It is what helped Callis Birth Father sign his papers. Can I get an AMEN! Good post and hope Ricardo is doing well. =)

C & C Baugh said...

Your post really just brightened my day! Thank you for that. I am most definitely going to be buying that book. Sounds like you are doing great! Are you just working for the summer or are you still attending school??

Just a little update on the baby....she is doing great! At my last doctors appointment he took all of her measurements on the ultra sound and calculated her weight to be 1lb. 11oz. I don't know if I've already told you this, but we have decided to name her Calli Rae. Can't wait to hear back from ya!

Desi said...

I just recently found your blog through the r house blog and I love that you have an open adoption and are proud of your birthmother title.

I have linked to your blog in a post that I have scheduled to post tomorrow morning about adoption. Please check it out tomorrow and let me know if that's ok.

Kim said...

I love me some Michael Wilcox. I hate it when people are so much more smarter and spiritual than I am. I should be more inspired. Your words inspire me. I am so thankful you are my friend. Thanks for all of your support!